And now, Fiona Evelyn is almost 7 months old. Where does the time go? Time really needs to slow down a bit. Not just for enjoying those small moments that we will never get again but also for the day to day. I always run out of time to do the things I need to do every day. Facebook and my iPad games definitely don't help. I feel like the day has just begun and its already 4pm and we are waiting for Daddy to get home. Between my full time school, Miss Fi, and trying to keep this house clean one or more always remains unfinished. And it is always school and housework, which is to be expected since I am not going to neglect my child. However, I do feel myself feeling guilty because I don't play with her enough. She is such an easy going baby and is very independent when her basic needs are taken care of. I find myself taking advantage of that on a regular basis and then spending a lot of time feeling guilty about that. Because of this, I finally unpacked her books box from the move three months ago. Or has it been longer? She seems to really enjoy the reading...at least when she isn't chewing on the corners.
Along with reading, she is doing new things all the time. I keep saying it but we are so close to being on the move. She crawls one or two steps? paces? and then stops. She knows how to do it but something is keeping her from not doing it. While I can't wait to have her crawl, I am also really apprehensive about it. That means a whole new world of not leaving her on the ground so I can go make a bottle, or go to the bathroom, or sit on the couch and read facebook. Not sure what we are going to do when this finally happens. A lot of babyproofing I imagine. I've already caught her putting small things in her mouth that she finds on the ground. It tells me I need to vacuum more. Yet another to add to the long list of things to keep up with.
She is also starting to whine more even though she is fed and rested. She wants attention which I find nothing wrong with but struggle with it when there is something that I really need to finish. She is starting to learn that whining gets attention and even if she is tired she will smile it up when she gets one-on-one time with me or daddy. Mostly daddy. I've heard girls will always be daddy's girls but am finally realizing the entire spectrum of what this means. Yet another reason why I am scared for her crawling because I fear she will always want to go to her daddy. Selfish?, yes. Does it change the fear? No.
I am so close to finishing my degree and need to keep pushing ahead but hate that this year is flying by. Today I found myself crying looking at one of her 3 month shirts that she no longer fits into. Granted, I was already emotional over a "disagreement" Donovan and I were having but it didn't change the fact that I no longer have a little baby that I can hold in my arms and rock.
I want so much for her to be independent and yet a small part of me wants a clingy baby that will lay in my arms, cuddle, and possibly fall asleep. Only a small part, granted, but being independent may mean that she won't come crawling up to me to sit in my lap and hang out with mommy. And that kind of hurts. I guess we will see what the future holds.
On a side note which I've mentioned briefly on FB, she has started doing this head tilt to one side. I'm not sure where she picked it up or why she does it. It makes me laugh every time and I think maybe she continues to do it because it makes me laugh but I'm not sure. Of course, Donovan is worried about it wondering if there is something wrong with her but I highly doubt it since she is going right along with her development. He is a worrywart of a daddy but I wouldn't want him any other way.
And just so this isn't all talky here are a few pics:
I can't believe how much she changes in such a short time.
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